It has been suggested to me that I try telling you my story. With all the bits you worry people are going to judge, all the nitty gritty. That is what made me decide to start writting a blog. So here it goes, my story and why I became a childminder.
I have always worked with kids. From being a child myself I was either being followed round by younger kids or I was coaching younger kids in clubs. For me working with kids one way or another was a given. Hence why I went into teaching. I loved being infront of my class, connecting with the children and building relationships. So when I got pregnant I thought, well I've got this in the bag.
I assumed I would be a natural and arrogantly thought I wouldn't face half the problems others had. Well I couldn't have been more wrong. When my beautiful daughter got here I was like a fish out of water. I didn't feel that instant gush of love people talk about, I felt like I didn't know what to do half the time, I felt alone and I felt judged constantly. Being a mother was so much har
der than I had ever imagined (and still is) and I knew I simply couldn't go back to teaching.
I marvelled at and felt envious of the people who juggle teaching and family. I wanted so desperately to be like them but knew that I could either put all my effort into parenting and be a half arsed teacher or put all my effort into teaching and half arse parenting. Neither of them was an option for me.
I had trained so hard and taken out 24K of student loans for no reason. What could I do? I decided to do some temping work to help us pay the bills while I thought about what I would do. My daughter was going to a childminder 2 days and with my mam 3 days. And it was my wonderful childminder who pushed me to start childminding myself.
I had the skills and training already and this way I wouldn't have to half arse parenting. I could still do the pick ups and drop offs. I could still play with her and be a real part of her life. It was the perfect fit for me. So here I am in year 1 of my childminding journey.
Sorry for the long post. I started writing and didn't know where to stop lol. Thanks to @queensinbusiness for prompting me to tell my story. #mystory #childmindersofinstagram #thisisme
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